Dear Azreel...

I am now resting. Tired after a long night at the gym and late nite swimming. It was suppose to be a weekly event but i dunno..let me keep it with myself and ma.

Still stress with the struggle to find a job. Wondering what these people looking for for their newly employed staff. Keep saying that my experienced that is not so impressing enough. Well fool, every people have their chance in their life to live the dreams that are meant. Again it's about giving people and chance..give me a chance.

A man with millions dream keep getting bullshit from bastard. Well, a legend rise from the a chance to shine and that one thing of millions wonders. That one thing can be a subjective matter but at the end of the day..the hard work and dedication to run towards the dream.

Screaming loud in my heart wishing for a better day. A lucky day that i have a job. Let it be just a simple thinggy job..but that simple thinggy job surely bring and good charm to prosper the good old dreams of mine.

Now as i said last nite before tido....I feel like writing something...words from me. and hope Ma, brothers and sister will share some of your time to read it.

Title: Dreaming Glow
Brief: Rap it like u are Tupac Shakur. A short story will along explaination...with every details explained..cheh..merapu...

Intro:
Those who wish to follow,
i welcome with my hands,
cheers with me,
and be my dreaming glow.

Firts,
When i write ryhme i go blind,
and speak with my heart and shine,
but what can i say, people still see with their sarcastic mind,
stressing..sick and frusrated,
That's the reality Bro,
there're cuts at every angle of my heart,
i am not a hater but the game that crash my dream,
i love my life and i don't wanna lose it fool,
and if you with,
put up your midle fingger and fuck you bastard.

Those who wish to follow,
i welcome with my hands,
cheers with me,
and be my dreaming glow.

Imagine you in my shoes,
am sure you get confuse,
lets hit the fact, and be realistic,
i still a young boy and ready to ride the wave,
Ma, bro and sis said one day everything will be fine,
and yeah, thanx, really appreciate.
I got the whole world to fight, the best is to keep believing,
STAY ALIVE
and pray for a better day.

Those who wish to follow,
i welcome with my hands,
cheers with me,
and be my dreaming glow.

Last,
let Rewind for while,
My high school exam sux but then strive with Hons,
and that my first turning point of my life,
next i wish it be coming soon,
Same old freak will be working hard,
the dreams are so far away now,
and lets Playback and walking forward,
and God, now i understand...its the rise and fall,
i hope this is my fall and wishing for the dream to shine,

Everybody singalong,

Those who wish to follow,
i welcome with my hands,
cheers with me,
and be my dreaming glow.



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..its not just the sun thats hot..its the people's mouth

MY dear friends,

It's not fair for me to cry alone,

It's not fair for me to run and not looking back,

In the end of the road, i seek for help,

and you are not there.

My dear Friends,

World is ever cruel since its birth,

May god be with us to face the fact,

With His love and kindness be with us,

To survive this struggle of good dreams.

My dear Friends,

Will you lead me your shoulder?,

Will you be my window to see the rainbow,

From now and ever after,

Will you?

My dear Friends,

If you want to get out from my circle,

Will you please go far away,

My wish for you to never think of me,

May your name vanish in my life.

My dear Friends,

My bullshit make sense,

It smell very much like G.W.Bush,

But deep within the smelly shit,

I look at it....if its good i..i smile...if not..flush it!!

......aku lah FREAK!!

Scott Morrissey and his journey to the Land Of Head Hunters

Mr. Scott Morrissey is currently in Kuching celebrating his freedom days without job. It's been a week and feeling not very well. Looks like having the H1N1 signs!!..damn..but whatever..knowing that seeing doctor will never be part of the plan. Let it be laa...100 plus and my bedroom...dah cukup.

I actually missed being around with my good friends in Kuala Lumpur. Thinking of it, its nice that you have few friends and very good ones but to many will trouble you. But the fact that i am alone here. Nobody else but the cousin and other related family. 

As for some friends here, words come out very easy from their mouth but never really do what the mean. So i rather chill and lazy around this house...waiting for someone to call and ask me out..I am a total stranger in my home town. 

Everytime i come back to this nice and easy going place, i will have this weird feeling that we here usually term it as "Side Effect". Yes, i wonder why and i don't need to tell you who. Its up to you to speculate anyone and i know that you are very GOOD in this speculating matters. 

I really missed being around with a lover. A lover with lots of hearts and very kind with very sexual addiction that come in as added value..hahahaha...dah la lama tak keras..WTF....

I dunno what will happen tomorrow...maybe another lazy day here in Kuching...but later in the evening i'll be watching Public Enemy with my anak buah...

Cheers my readers!!

Lost British in Ulu Klang Pt 6 - Dream and Fantasy...?...

Life is unfair...but fair it be that no matter what everyone will always be in my heart. How many friends i have lost and now most you them running away. Well friends, i don't what to be the burden in your life. Is it hard for you to just look at me and smile. Just a simple gesture with a minimal force and energy. You know i don't like enemy. We are something and now nothing. Where is the love?

I probably never understand the way you are. But something inside ..not very strange ..that i know we are still thinking the same thing. Never treat me bad, but i guess now things have change. Again, i have no pressure that hope yo understand that you always be in my heart.

Should i ask why, you will scream. Should i ignore, you will scream. Thus, i am resting to the end of this stress.

Unexpected situation. Yes, i was shocked and i don't really care. I am not some Mike Tyson or the legendary Muhammad Ali. I will walk away and don't want to make this cloudy situation become a haze that will chock my breath.

"..i regret and my middle finger is pointed at me"

" Bro....ada mana"

" Apa lama baru nak reply...just about to sleep. Why ?"

"Nothing...jom makan..teringin makan kat Cheese Naan itu?

" That sounds ...but takde tempat lain yang lagi cool ke"

" that warung is cool bro...thats KL..that the city. I like it"

" yeah, like people always say..always look for the greener grass"

" Apa merepek kau cakap. Nah, i am telling you, i am at the position in which i can't afford to eat at those fancy restaurant..."

" Ye ke?"

" Yes, can you please tell me when i change...never..i still eat at the place where i find its good..and its good "

" Okay ..okay...jom lepak"

" good, aku ambik kau la!!"

" oOoooooOoo........OOoooooOOoooooOOooo....OOooooooOOoooooOoo....i wanna sex you up...all night...i want ..to...sex you up"

"Pergh...lagu nie....dig!!"

"yeah....sangat zaman sekolah rendah"

" exactly..."

Status:.....still at the buttom...?

Inspired from a well known rapper and words below are mine:

Every other day, i still dreaming like i also do,

and i don't even care what other talk about me,

i ain't living at the same shoes as yours, i have my own to worry,

i slide in easily and keeping up is hard to do,

and for most of us, we be thinking bout better days,

Don't question my lifestyle,

i know i face the demon and god at the same time,

just keep in your mind that i wish for sweet heavenly times,

Thinking back as a young jobless guy,

i have been solo and so wrong,

tired of being broke can't pay for a drink,

and that time i will know who is my friends,

Looking for better days, and still chasing my dream,

i am not that average people that have all the advantages,

lock down in this situation, very hard and tears still coming,

you and me are no strangers,

approaching you with some freshly smiles everyday we meet up,

real man will always climb up slow and i drive it slow,

i will start digging the wealth from low and make mountains,

Thinking back as a young jobless guy,

i have been solo and so wrong,

tired of being broke can't pay for a drink,

and that time i will know who is my friends,

Every time you around and round you go,

respect to those who put your head away from me,

i take it easy and don't wanna break you neck cuz i know you will need me,

i aint rich ..aint now,

brothers say stop crying..and yes bro, i keep my head up high,

it make take awhile before i can fly with my own jet,

what ever you want..get it,

forget those bastard, i aint a hater but those cheap mouth is a no show,

This is my true stories at the mo,

witness an dt hard times, one day i hope to make it,

maybe its a fantasy, but i know i will earn it,

i dont worry about a damn thing,

this isn't a game, but dreams to be achieve.

.................desired for higher position and elevation to make people listen!!

Happy Earth Day.....[Yayyy..]

I would like to wish the Earth that today is your day that the whole population are blessed with your priceless gifts. But unfortunately, we've ignored the catastrophic outcome off missed used of the nature's gift.

Spent the whole evening watching documentary, one after another give me pretty good knowledge of what happened and will happen in the near future. Earth Report documentary by National Geographic Channel today explain about the climate change and the worse cases scenario. The followed by human footprint which tells about our ignorance of the things that we use and put into waste.

Interesting fact from that documentary is that we use eat in average amount of 10 tones of food every year and half of it becomes the waste which end up in the sanitation centre. Damn!!

Other than that, the end credit states that, we human on average counts blink our eyes 415 millions times at the average age. Wow...We fart almost 215 times per month again ata average in which if you gather all the gas and light it up with fire...boom..9 meters height of fire...gempak!!

Another documentary that caught my attention was the : Degree Could Change...something like that... Cool and interesting show. Explain about how the earth will change in every 1 degree Celsius. Even a one degree can melt about 23km of North Pole. Can Change the Landscape of Amazon to become 1/3 of desert.

2 degree increase can make the Ganges River to drop its level, Glassier in Himalayan will melt and could be a sudden change of part Heat Storm..Part Rain Fall..and some both at the same day.

China emits the most CO2 in the past 10 years. this comes through the rapid development in the country. And They come to realize that they need to change their way and finally end 0f 2008, researcher admits that China is at the top rank of becoming the Eco-Friendly country with effort to help reduce the climate change.

Congratulation to China and well as Australia. Where is Malaysia in the eyes of the world. Is it a good or bad thing. I wonder...

Here to share some fact: (from Earth Day:http://www.earthday.net)

By 2030 the number of automobiles in the world will increase by 50%.

According to Chevron, the world consumes two barrels of oil for every barrel discovered.

It took 125 years to consume the first trillion barrels of oil – the world will consume the next trillion in only 30 years, according to Chevron.

By 2030 the world will consume 47% more oil than it did in 2003.

During the last one hundred years the global temperature has warmed between 0.7-1.5°C.

It is predicted that global temperatures in 2100 will be 1.4-5.8°C warmer than they were in 1990.

The current pace of sea-level rise is 50% faster then in the last century.

Scientists estimate the sea level will rise by 3.5-34.6 inches by 2100.

Much of the United States has already warmed, by as much as 4°F.

The five warmest years over last century have likely been: 2005, 1998, 2002, 2003, 2004. The top 10 warmest years have all occurred since 1990.

Since the beginning of the Industrial Revolution, carbon dioxide (a green house gas linked to climate change) in the atmosphere has increased by 35%.

Diseases such as malaria are predicted to spread as the world grows warmer, due to the carriers of disease spreading out over a larger geographical area.

Of particular concern is the stability of the West Antarctic Ice Sheet. A sudden collapse would raise sea levels 16-20 feet, though the likelihood of such a collapse before the year 2100 is low.

Despite natural emissions of carbon dioxide (CO2) emitted by volcanoes, for example, human activities are now adding about 7 billion metric tons of carbon into the atmosphere every year.

New energy discoveries are mainly occurring in places where resources are difficult to extract-physically, technically, economically, and politically.

Oil production is in decline in 33 of the 48 largest oil producing countries,3 yet energy demand is increasing around the globe as economies grow and nations develop.

Oil and gas currently provide more than half of the world’s energy supply, and according to the International Energy Agency, they—along with coal (which also releases CO2)—will continue to be the major sources of energy well into the 21st century unless things are changed.

The International Energy Agency estimates that the world will need to invest $16 trillion over the next three decades to maintain and expand energy supply.

Over half the world’s oil supplies lie in just 5 countries.

Agriculture and biodiversity are already being impacted by global warming. 10% of all known plant species are under threat of extinction.

Over 20 Million Americans, 6.3 million of which are children, suffer from asthma. Public health experts are worries that those numbers will rise with continued greenhouse gas emissions.

People living in cities such as Atlanta, Baltimore, and Cincinnati could by mid-century see a 60% increase in the number of high smog level days.

Diseases such as malaria and West Nile virus will occur in large numbers in the United States as a result of warmer temperatures.

The Arctic ice pack has lost an area about twice the size of Texas since the mid-1970's.

Automobiles count for almost a third of the U.S.'s Carbon Dioxide (CO2) emissions - the largest source after power plants.

Each gallon of gasoline burned creates 20 pounds of CO2.

Vehicles in the United States release more CO2 than all the energy sources (such as heating, electricity, vehicles, and factories) in all of India.

As many as 15-37% of all wildlife species in some regions could be "committed to extinction" by 2050 years because of global climate change.

Salmon, trout, and waterfowl are particularly vulnerable to climate change.

Climate change is having a disastrous effect on coral reefs, including in the Florida Keys, the Bahamas, and Mexico.

Winter temperatures in the Arctic have warmed by as much as 7° F over the last 60 years, a faster rate than in any other region. This affects wildlife such as foxes, caribou, walruses, and polar bears. It also affects the lifestyles of native peoples in the Arctic.

By planting a large tree that creates shade, one can reduce heating and cooling costs annually by up to 40%.

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Ini lah berkisah tentang suatu kolompok masyarakat yang amat mempercayai kisah mitos. Dah kisah mitos ini adalah cerita yang dikatakan menjadi setiap tajuk perbualan masyarakat ini ketika berjumpa di tepi jalan mahupun ketika minum kopi di kedai Cheh Boh. Kisah ini ada dikalangan mereka kaitkan dengan kisah 'Urban Legend' dan ada pula kata ini kisah pak bomoh sumpren nang krapao.

Namun demikian, asal usul atau pangkal cerita ini masih tidak di ketahui. Tetapi, seperti masyarakat lain di dunia ini, ada saja orang yang akan di tujukan dan dikaitkan dengan asal cerita ini. Apabila kaji dan di teliti dengan sebaik-baiknya, bahawanya kisah ini terjadi atas"High Inquiry' oleh individu ini dan apa yang memeranjatkan, dalang cerita ini juga melibatkan juga melibatkan kan golongan lelaki. Atas hipotensis pertama;di andaikan golongan perempuan yang di jadi permula bicara. Namun sakaan ini kurang tepat dimana cerita ini juga disumbangkan dan dikongsi oleh golongan lelaki.

Ternyata, bahan buktinya masuh belum ketahui secara jelas. Dan ada yang mengatakan mereka tidak masuk campur dalam pembikinan mahupun sumbangan cerita. Apa pun jika sekampung bercakap tidak akan ada yang tidak mendengar.

Ada masanya sampai nak ketawa pun ada. Sudah lumrah manusia apabila terciptanya terlinga dan mulut. Tapi hati dan jiwa raga yang bagus membezakan seseorang dari terlibat sama. Kerana apapun, hidup ini bagai roda. Seteguh kedudukan pun akan roboh sekelip mata. Ini juga beza apda setiap manusia. Rezeki masing masing lain lain. Periuk nasi mungkin sama tapi brand yang diguna mungkin lain.

Dan apa pun yang terjadi selepas ini, akan di perhati dan di dengar. Hidup di arus kemodenan ini juga memberi tindakan langsung kepada informasi terkini. Namun pihak asal akan masih berada dipihak berkecuali dan tetap mempertahankan perinsipnya yang berbunyi " Love is to share but to care is nobody business. Kata merepek itu memberi makna yang dalam dan hanya yang telinga besar dapat paham.

Majulah sistem informasi. baik untuk sejagat dan kepuasan diri.

CERITA FIKSYEN INI TIADA KAITAN DENGAN INDIVIDU YANG HIDUP MAHUPUN YANG MERASA DIRI DI CERITA DALAM POST EDISI INI.SILA BACA DAN PERIKSAN JIKALAU NAMA TERPAPAR. YANG PASTI INI CERITA BILIK TIDUR YANG HANYA AKAN KELUAR PADA PAPARAN SKRIN ANDA DAN BUKAN DI RADIO,T.V DAN R.E.X.

- status...naik 2KG...esok sure turun balik!!! damn!!(.........transmisi terganggu....tetttt..tettt... Hidup senang kalau kita kata ..watever la!)........(looking host...Lost British......Host found..)....(resume CoKeNeckTion)

..and action!

Next weekend, there will be a new Zaharism Photo session. Location is still unknown but the overall concept in finally come to the end of planing.

These photos will be divide to two style or concept in which will be edit later. First Concept is inspired by the norms of unique in Black and White photography. But with the touch of scott pesona, these pictures will be put at a different angle whereby the texture and also composition will be adjust in a way of putting it to become a B&W HD and High Pass.

With that concept, scott pesona will add another portion of simple framing style in which there will be a short story explain through the photograph.

Next is the full CMYK photos. These photos will be more into portrait style but style chill chill skit la...scott pesona will try to but some ray lights and fantasy lights on the final touch of the photos.

Well...i guess..thats about all.....

thanx....

Lost British in Ulu Klang Pt 5 - Where Are you...? Scott..

As what was said...

"Life is unpredictable"

Eventually, the person himself will always determine his own destiny. when there is a will..there is a way. So no matter where he will be or what he is doing, he do it hard. Something special going own but the fact he yet to know what will be the outcome. Ambisoiun and partly religious, he said...sky is the limit. And his entire body system received the motivational words. With hope, every single part of his body will help.

"Bro, ko Sibuk ke?"

"Nope...well, kinda if you want to ask about my love life...yes...i busy"

"hek...ilek la...something good to share here...Nak Dengar tak?"

"Okay...make sure it is not about girl"

"well, let me start this way.......She ask me if you.."

"Fuck Off...Bro..aku tak shuka la..please..i tired and bosan with this"

"Fuck the hell ...ehh ..actually aku nak kata..what the fuck...Alaaaaa, bro, trust me she is not she that have in your mind...you know she right"

"but still bro...aku masih lagi side effect bro...i give up with she and now new she...Fucking hell...how i wish things are easy"

"ko takut apa nya haa...."

"My name never come accross and the person that i care the most...and why should i care for another person...things might be the same...everynight i wish she come back to me...at anytime.."

"Fucking your hell la brother, shit happen and thats it...you look at it..and you flush..."

"Bullshit, if its with good smell ..i keep it brother...dah..aku sibuk..esok aku ada presentation"

Right back at reality, he always fikir that he is the best, not to tunjuk menunjuk but it always been that way. Just as i though that , he is superb. Always percaya kat diri sendiri..If he said he will fail that exam..he will and if he will score...damn.. flying colours.

He is really tired of everything around. Love will always be love..and for this young, dedicated and full of mysteries boy, he love his dream more than anything else. He can't sing..he can't pose like the GQ models.

After a few month of MIA. All of sudden he is around the golden triangle chilling alone at the pavilion. Light brown pants and white shirt with his Dr. Martin's , he looks like a mat salleh that is assigned for FBI..CIA job. Smoking the cigar and with a latte on the table.

Writing something while looking at the sky and smiling once awhile and i am sure that he is dreaming again.

"I have been thinking lately..the world is changing to fast. The economy is in the sudden death. The best thing that people still chase the the money. Am i hurt, yes..i am. Even worse..i will be jobless in next few weeks. How can i concentrate with the problem i face. I keep my head up in the sky so i know i will be confident. I am not going to cry..with all the bullshit that everyone telling me. I know i can do..i know i will"

.....................................

"Decided"

"i decided to give up.I decided to run. I decided to kill this ego-trip.

"I wish Tupac Amaru still around. I give me so much of inspiration. I wish Richard Branson live next door and i am his BFF. I wish Warren Buffet is sitting next to me."

[actual:703099]

Kayshah Shaymalam

"you spin my head right round right round..when you go down down"

SungGuh beSh sekaLi minggu lePas. Ada Company farewell and pergi beRsama qaseh ku..Thank you sayang.

Well, last weekend ada this farewell to our fren.So melepak ke Port Dickson...Di Ilham Resort. That Saturday evening aRound 5pm..All of us when down to look for ATV ..(extreme park). We took this ATV and ride it cross the junGle and then to these dirt cum muddy circuit infront of the dewan..Layan..Dah la baDan kuRus giler..so bila tgh bawak laju and ambik corner..perghh kalau tak grip betul mau melayang ke teluk Kemang..hahaha.

Dah Habis main, perghh buruk betul rupe..baju kotor...balik..mandi....then prepare for the BBQ...

After Makan...kita org main this teka teka game la...WTF...amat lucu sekali!! I am sure gonna remember those funny2 action from them including myself...

After that...Pergi berjumpa dengan keluarga Qaseh. And malayan Nasi Lemak the Bomb!!layan..

Kerja lain!!

APAKAH INI SUATU REALITI NANTI.MUNGKINKAH...BAGAIMANAKAH!!!!!!!

Perhentian Island...

I was a wonderful time. Gile and freakism habis....rasanya tak larat nak menceritakan semua...nak rehat dahulu..penat kerja.!!

i am back, Sunday. After relaxing and chilling with my love ones. i am ready to write something with regards and favor of my previous trip to Perhentian Island.

All i can say, i think both of my friend would agree on me that the trip was a wonderful and amazing one. They way we took the pictures may looks as if its a bit gayism but well put aside that perception as the experience we had. Damn....penat driving and then sesat for about 1 and half hours...giler down...

you can see the sea water turn from clear water, to light blue...babby blue then dar blue. lagi about the coral reef...perghh...giler gemps la...tak sangka la....i went down to boracay island last two years..and nothing match to this pehentian island..far better from boracay island except that the boracay island is 24 hours of happening laa..party..music and cool babes..

my stressed and presure cured by the wonderful moments that i personally felt. tapi tgh tgh best tue...tension gak makanan mahal. ONE THING I WONDER...why tiada harga TEMPATAN....why!!!!..ada tapi baik takyah kalau kurang RM 15 je.....sotong tiga ketul RM 60..apa kejadah..tolak la pendapat fresh ke baru angkat ke...weii....baik aku makan kat restoran kat kl...baru aku tau macam mana dier kire cost nak angkut..transport dan masak..

ini depan mata laut..pun nak kira cost besar ke...

Lantaq la......

for next trip...i will be going to another island or maybe to penang to jelajah mkn.....hihihi...

who ever wannna join my event: jumpstart/2009..sila buzz yah..hahahaha

tak pernah ada sambutan pun...la la la..lantaq la...

i may not be somebody today but someday i will somebody....!!!

TESTING using picasa

Keep life as Autopilot and Keep on Flying

One day whe know what will be coming next,
daydreamin is the prediction of the future...

Last weekend, i watched my fav romantic movies for countless times for now. NoteBook, Gol & Gincu, American Wedding and Forgetting Sarah Marshal. These movies make me feel that love is nothing more than a companion that in in the needs and wants of people.


Living this hard times, i wish that we know what will come and a very predictable life. But in the end, let it be as what it supposed to be. Should be more exciting i guess. There are lots of strange things happening nowadays, phone monitoring, not to mention pornographic annouring. Shit, things become more exciting it sound to be but getting complicated too.

Actually, here to share some storie that i expericed it through my 23 years breathing. Valentine's day that weekend reminds me of my love hurt story. Called it my own epic journey of finding self relevancy,belief and motivation to move forward. Wish you could understand my story and take a ride for those with the same shoe.

I am not trying to bring this matter over and over again. i also dont what to let the person that i care right now to feeling down. I dont know how do feel towards me but this is just a story that might help you to realise that silence is pain.

I feeling so much better every since November. Trauma still living but i gotta make a move somehow or rather. Its not about you, her, or that person. but its a general story, suitable for all.

It is impossible to most of us to forget the worse,hurtful tragedy. I admit that it still hurting as i remember. Slide away from it. Love is being judge but words you ar saying. Some percentage falls in the gensture, the gift of the way you dress up. Words are the powerful weapon to create love. Choosing, selecting and using it will need to apply to the right person, situation and also place. Your own background, your own life in the best dictionary or words. But are those words mean true and just a compliment or false hope.

Both are innocent when comes to true feeling, despite the words, the actual meaning can be a misleading without further explaination. For example; "sorry...i have other things to focus..life and family"...but actualy ...there someone else better or not interested.

I like you but i love you...kinda complicated gak or vise versa

there are many other ways that makes us feel its complicated..the only thing that i trust is keep believing...that the most powerful one to start.

just remember,

Life is not about how many breath you take..but the moments that take your breath away!!

Autopilot life..land me safe..land me with the kindness people.

Last British in Ulu Klang Pt 4 - Half in love with my shadow

“so what’s up?”

“takde ape... Life itself a mystery.”

“oh yeah, “life is like a box of choclate..pastu aku tak tau ape..”

“hahaha”

“hahaha”

“Kerja okay ke?”

“yeah, sepatutnya okay, namun it is not as what I expected it to be”

“bro, you can just speak in English with me. Sounds funny when you mixed it up”

“hahaha, wonder how those british people speak in those days”

“hahaha, you can never know. Maybe they have a dikir barat group”

“hahaha”

“hahaha”


I considered myself as a cool, funny, fun and enjoyable person. Easy to get along and I remember a wise words from Scottish saying that “if you leave a horse alone, it dies. A commonsense that I would like to share here is that, don’t you ever leave the person that you care much alone. Be there at almost anytime. I know sometimes it is impossible. But try. The person will not die, unless god’s willing but the feelings my fades away. Please take note of what I’ve said.

Or maybe too much time together that ruins the relationship. Well it depends on how you see your relationship or the problem that occurs. Politically speaking that, it is a give and take situation that each individual have to understand. Everything will be fine. Hopefully, my advice will not promise any good will. 

“dude, last night aku mimpi dia la”

“serious, was it a good or bad dream?”

“seems like a good one..but I dunno..it is just a dream.”

“yeah..but after all, you have to believe if you feel that it is good dream, right?”

“yeah..hopefully something good will happen on 23 January”

“what…? Why 23 January?”

“I dunno…in my dream, I saw a piece of paper with writing saying 23 January 2009, 2245”

“wow…pray for good things for you bro”

“yeah thanx dude”

“lepak mana later”

“oh yeah, normal place la. Rindu the food and people there”

“OMG..mintak mintak the cheetah girls takde..”

“eww..damn..thats is so OMG.. muntah..”

How I wish that everything is perfect. Everything that we do,we see and we like. We are such a small person, created by God. He knows the best for us. A new year just started, what will happen? We will never know. Untill we know that is when we know. 

It is time to move on. I did my best… doing the good things..and nothing comes out from that. Not as what I expected. Useless efford. Words of compliment pun tak dapat. So that’s it. Now I understand, kalau dah takde itu means no forever. Sounds like that person pun dating someone. Wishing all the best of luck and glory of love. 

I wish I didn’t miss you anymore. So painful and I wish you understand. Regret I might say but when it comes to love, nothing compares to a great sacrifice. Make sense sometimes with certain conditions. Life is unfair when you spoiled it. It haunts you till the day you get you ‘pay back time’.

“Shit..bro..that girl again”

“damn, what a ….arghh”

“cool..chill..”

       “ hye there..lama tak Nampak u guys. Whats up”

“hmm,we are busy..so nothing more that we can do”

       “kenapa tak balas my SMSs?”

“ did SMSs me?..when?

        “come one..notty la..”

“serious..maybe u try again later”

        “ohh okay..I nak gerak sana with my fren..ada mase join la kay”

“nah..we have lots of things to catch up.”


Meanwhile..

“babe, is that him?”

“yeah…OMG..feel my heart beat”

“wah…ohh cupid..help my fren here”

“shut up, bitch!...tapi kan..i rasa dier mcm gay je”

“hmm..tak la…tapi yeah..i ada Nampak dier.Banyak kali gak..selalu dengan laki je.One time I saw him with a girl. Tapi my fren kate itu kakak dier”

“haa..yeah..i think itu kakak dier.”

“what I heard la..he is still paranoid with relationship”

“yeah..that is what heard too…here..there is always something new to try”

“babe, to him..maybe something sort of new pain in love..who knows”

“yeah la…takpe…let it be true or be legend”

“hahaha…”

Life is unpredictable. But ones you understand the situation around you. You will know what might possible to happen. Be careful in what you do. Don’t be like me and shout out loud, “ stupid cupid,why you give love that I don’t know?”

….s a m b u n g….

Last British in Ulu Klang Pt 3 - Kawan Cinta Rasa

It’s an early start for me. The 2009 is nothing more than just another year. Which I can summarize as, typical, ordinary and same as previous years. That will change through out all. Perhaps with something new that I do, another move I make, leading forward and logically thinking that I am that somebody. Few weeks ago, I bought new modem for my internet connection. Finally I am back in the track of information. (WTF). Exploited the true decent usage of internet. Browsing mature web (honestly), youtube (definitely), Facebook (status..la la la) and tutorial about photo editing (yeah baby).

Should I mention, downloading movie and songs (complete ambum)…hooray torrent. Happened last week as well, while browsing for the latest Indonesian songs, there is this one song that I like. Really nailed straight to my heart and soul, It is from Ungu – cinta dalam hati (love in heart). I find it honest, very wise of him to say it. Who guys should listen to it. I am touched with the words. All of sudden, side effect datang lagi..well, that life and sick cycle carousal..hihih.
Enough with my gibberish. I should start another chapter of the Last British in Ulu Klang.

Would it be nice to be with you,
Would it be nice to kiss you….

“Good bye for forever?”

“Yes.”

“But why?”

“You are not focused…still playing around. Enough my dear. I had enough. Misery and pain.”

“Why don’t you be more focused? “

That’s not all. It is not a fight. A normal argument that usually happened to most people when it comes to partnership in life. Is that true?

The famous words, “friends come and go”. Well, no matter how many or few you have, it will happened. Even if you gain new friends,someone might open the door and exit from your life. Moments that shared together means nothing anymore. You start to say “what a shitty,bullshit, idiot,crap,bastard..whatever it feel like to say”. As for me, I have a few, and that few I considered as my brothers and sisters. The stick with you through thick and thin, sweet and bitter life will be more meaningful.

“bro, ko kat ne?”

“I am at rumah aku. Why. Apa Case?

“Jom Lepak. Hart square”

(monologue)
“sure..hmm..nahh..Okay”

“Okay. Cool.Waktu bila?”

“Waktu bila apa dier..i fetch you around 11”

“K”

Another night for me to catch up some things with friend and bitching about whatever. While waiting, I put on my iPod and select a cover song “womanizer” by Lily Allen. Ada rupa skit nie..hahaha.

Friend. What else is there that we can share. How if I like you, the best or the less of you. What else that might happen. It is not about me. More about you. In the end of day, how my heart feels of us. Would it be wonderful or painful? When my feelings be your feelings. Rasaku rasamu. Could it be another great love romance movie or journey to a shitty life.

Maybe it is my fate. To admire you without being love. I don’t know what else to do. You are happy with your own life. It been a long time I kept this feelings. To catch you in my arms again, to be in love and happy together.

Will you understand that I am still here waiting? Hoping that what I feel will make both of us happy. If not, please let me know. Allow me to hug you one last time, and be in the glory just for awhile.

“bro..aku kat bawah”

“sekejap. Aku put on my shirt and gosok my teeth yah”

…bersambung lagi…