Its kinda weird what did happen recently. But nevertheless it was a great time though that nothing sets in my state of mind. In the corner of my brain, there is this block of words called 'CRAP'. Followed by my tongue with this unique taste portion describe as 'WASTED'.
______________that is the CHEAP-NO-SHIT of the story______________
Like paradise, we love to imagine the most wonderful of world could be. How you wish things are on your side. Smooth; happy life. With my extraodinary capability to fantasize, imagine and visualized; "oh goshhh, you will be ensure with the so called "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING, FREAK!".
"Bro, kahwin bile"
"huhuhu, i dunno ..why"
"Just asking...OMG, u r gay"
" Fuck you cunt..aku gay, lama dah aku jadi hero citer gay hollywood..hahaha"
"hahaha...you seems to look more like hero of the rude boys"
"ya man...i wish i am"
I betrayed my own beliefs. My pride and my only savior for better life's aura. I should have cut my skin. Sorry duke and tracy, there are things in common value which i respect. Now i am feeling a bit rusty, thankful that my feets are still on the ground. Aware of the changes. The truth hurts, but as things becoming more clear, i wish for not just standing near, be the ears that listen and the mouth that speaks.
Skid thus End.
So, here we are, left along side the true and pure brothers and sisters. The hood that walk like a troop and strike like a brave warrior. (well we ae pretty much like monkeys...seriously funny monkey)..hahaha..This would be my first trip with fellow hunters. Well not that far..would be around 48.7klicks from my house.
On my part, i might be preparing some foods to bring along..and drinks (good drinks)..hahaha..will be capturing some great times with the rest. Cant wait for this heavenly times.
But it all comes when there is no othe rplan from my family...kalau ada...mati lo.. (owhh i speak malay)..
Owhh yes, friday..this coming friday....browse shopping day!!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Lost British in Ulu Kelang: Sharing The Load
Writing this chapter requires me to be really really me. Mercy comes along my bitterly regret. Love is still with me while thinking of the words to explain what is runing in my mind lately. Having said that, my mind, body and soul having their own party. Party of rebel and hatred.
Dear F Word,
I am now in a fullboard attention of this organization. Part of my body in and both feet are out. Not even a tiny step are made to be actually step-in and appreciate the true value. As all my friends knew and aknowledgel; i am the man with milions dreams. Inspired through my hard times, painful moments and sweetest victory for 25 years.
My childhood was awesome. No words can eventually describe what i had experience. Life is such a fun when we were young. Tears rewarded with gifts and pleasure. Toys and machines are the instrument to make the melody of tears become a smile. As my age become more, i learned that it is more that fun.
Its a battle to be able to undertake the burden of being a boy. Education is the huge part of my pie. Others are Sports, fun, crazy and freaky. During that teenage era, i was the mutant, nobel one. I admit that i have no interest in education. But things change when we moved to Kuala Lumpur. I noticed that F word did major effords to help me get into a good institution. So i change me objective of my life.
I do what is good. What F word wants me to be in flying colours. I do it really good. But one thing in life, within myself; i don't like people to ask me questions about what happen today, what's is your result, how was your friends; are they good. and blah blah blah....
It resulted to a masive amount of confusion and stress. Thus, it effected to my final exam of my school's exams. Nevertheless, once get into the higher leaning institution, i can be my own. I do what is good for me and my future. It was proven and acctually graduate with points that i personally can be proud of.
Reason for me to be a successful person, top gun in the industry and the canon that blows people's mind is because I WANT TO CHANGE MY FUTURE. I noticed that i can not be the man be working without anybody appreciate and noted on my ability to take any resposiblities. I went through a very hard times. i don't want the same thing happen to myfamily and my own in years to come.
Shits come and go. But will never stop to make some ache in me.
I listen to your advise. I take your words. I do whats good. I make you proud of nothing comes from me. I measure the importance of money and stats of my future. To be able to live in my dreams. The dreams that i imagines since i was in the early 20s...Yupe.
But nothing comes near. I can't event smell and heard the miracle coming. As the wise man said; There are Two Ways to Live your Life. One is Though Nothing is a Miracle. Other is Though Everything is Miracle.
And, yeah...whateverLAH. leave it to the hands of God Almighty. I can't ask anymore.
I hope one day...that one day to change my life back to something i can be proud of. Something to show, to tell a story and to cherish with my kids later.
I want my name to be known for the goodwill and campaign.
(END)
Dear F Word,
I am now in a fullboard attention of this organization. Part of my body in and both feet are out. Not even a tiny step are made to be actually step-in and appreciate the true value. As all my friends knew and aknowledgel; i am the man with milions dreams. Inspired through my hard times, painful moments and sweetest victory for 25 years.
My childhood was awesome. No words can eventually describe what i had experience. Life is such a fun when we were young. Tears rewarded with gifts and pleasure. Toys and machines are the instrument to make the melody of tears become a smile. As my age become more, i learned that it is more that fun.
Its a battle to be able to undertake the burden of being a boy. Education is the huge part of my pie. Others are Sports, fun, crazy and freaky. During that teenage era, i was the mutant, nobel one. I admit that i have no interest in education. But things change when we moved to Kuala Lumpur. I noticed that F word did major effords to help me get into a good institution. So i change me objective of my life.
I do what is good. What F word wants me to be in flying colours. I do it really good. But one thing in life, within myself; i don't like people to ask me questions about what happen today, what's is your result, how was your friends; are they good. and blah blah blah....
It resulted to a masive amount of confusion and stress. Thus, it effected to my final exam of my school's exams. Nevertheless, once get into the higher leaning institution, i can be my own. I do what is good for me and my future. It was proven and acctually graduate with points that i personally can be proud of.
Reason for me to be a successful person, top gun in the industry and the canon that blows people's mind is because I WANT TO CHANGE MY FUTURE. I noticed that i can not be the man be working without anybody appreciate and noted on my ability to take any resposiblities. I went through a very hard times. i don't want the same thing happen to myfamily and my own in years to come.
Shits come and go. But will never stop to make some ache in me.
I listen to your advise. I take your words. I do whats good. I make you proud of nothing comes from me. I measure the importance of money and stats of my future. To be able to live in my dreams. The dreams that i imagines since i was in the early 20s...Yupe.
But nothing comes near. I can't event smell and heard the miracle coming. As the wise man said; There are Two Ways to Live your Life. One is Though Nothing is a Miracle. Other is Though Everything is Miracle.
And, yeah...whateverLAH. leave it to the hands of God Almighty. I can't ask anymore.
I hope one day...that one day to change my life back to something i can be proud of. Something to show, to tell a story and to cherish with my kids later.
I want my name to be known for the goodwill and campaign.
(END)
Monday, May 3, 2010
Lost British In Ulu Kelang Pt10: A friend in need is hemoglob running under my skin
we are truly amazed on the magical touch that love could ever done to human. Such a human thing to indeed through loving one another. Putting the stats and prof aside, it become more meaningful with such similarity between these love hearts.
two stories become a story for the year. Actors and Actress are my friends and some or brother and sister to me. But Things have change alot among them and myself as i felt what my friends experienced.
Things are far beyond our control..even taking that tiny steps.It is god's will to grant the move. And it apply to every single thing is life. What matter is we cheers with our life, responsible and learn to appreciate the true objective of the intention, be bad or good.
Indeed life itself is very super 'Busy Body'. Again, god wants it that way. We cruise along !
To my dearest brother. A soldier on my right arm and a freak as mine on the left arm. Be strong, listening to your heart and mind. I was in your situation. I decide..i made my choice. I ignore the intolerance and accept the cheerisable moments. Life is always unfair to all of us. But we balance it within our our world. Who care, in the end of the day, you eat what you earn, you shit what you have taken.
It take two to be as dumb as the donkey. One may not be able to appreciate and one is so blunt mind.
Slowly brother. me and my STrawberry tart wishes you the best,. the greatest times. You earn the pride. Life with in. be proud!
Salam Satu Malaysia.
(Saya suke coklat Sneakers....Iklan ini dibawa khas oleh Sir Elton John)
Sekian,
two stories become a story for the year. Actors and Actress are my friends and some or brother and sister to me. But Things have change alot among them and myself as i felt what my friends experienced.
Things are far beyond our control..even taking that tiny steps.It is god's will to grant the move. And it apply to every single thing is life. What matter is we cheers with our life, responsible and learn to appreciate the true objective of the intention, be bad or good.
Indeed life itself is very super 'Busy Body'. Again, god wants it that way. We cruise along !
To my dearest brother. A soldier on my right arm and a freak as mine on the left arm. Be strong, listening to your heart and mind. I was in your situation. I decide..i made my choice. I ignore the intolerance and accept the cheerisable moments. Life is always unfair to all of us. But we balance it within our our world. Who care, in the end of the day, you eat what you earn, you shit what you have taken.
It take two to be as dumb as the donkey. One may not be able to appreciate and one is so blunt mind.
Slowly brother. me and my STrawberry tart wishes you the best,. the greatest times. You earn the pride. Life with in. be proud!
Salam Satu Malaysia.
(Saya suke coklat Sneakers....Iklan ini dibawa khas oleh Sir Elton John)
Sekian,
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